Today I saw a number I have been wishing for since the end of April. I just really wanted to get below 180. Today I did it! Weird thing, I'm not excited. I feel more like a cross between "well, it's about time" and disbelief because it's taken a ridiculously long time to get here. A good 3.5 months. To lose 10 lbs. For real. I'm glad I have my physical on Thursday and I'm so hoping for answers and a simple solution. Like it's my thyroid levels and taking this pill for 2 weeks will fix it. That'd be awesome.
On the plus side, I'm starting to feel thinner. Normally I've actually been thinner for at least a few weeks before my head catches up and I realize I actually AM thinner. This time it's harder for me to know where I'm at. My measurements haven't really changed. I am much more solid but there's still a layer of fat covering all my muscles. I'm not down a size yet. The scale is only slighter lower. I know the person I see in the mirror and even in pictures is a distortion. I see my flaws. I have a hard time seeing changes until they're big changes. My mom and my husband can tell a change. But they're also the people I vent to about not seeing changes and the people I tend to write off most easily because of course they see the best in me. Make sense? I value their opinions but they're most likely to notice the smallest change. I tend to put more stock in it when someone who doesn't have an interest in keeping me happy or pays all that much attention to me notices a change. Messed up, huh? I suppose it would be less biased...Anyhow, Steve's sister and mom both seemed surprised yesterday when I said I haven't really lost much weight or many inches. I take that as a sign that my body is changing.
Oh, and apparently my cardio conditioning is working so well that I'm burning fewer calories, lol. Cruel irony of getting into shape, although I thought I'd be a good 20 lbs lighter before that really happened. Ah well. I can just push myself harder through my workouts now. Here's hoping the doc has answers!
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