Thursday, May 19, 2011

Updates for May

Hey hey! I have some updates...

- Turbo Kick is going pretty well. Well, one class went well. I had FIVE people! True two were my sisters, but still. :) The other three are interested in coming again but Thursdays don't work for them. I may switch evenings, as tonight was my first Thursday and it was just me and Leslie again. Can I just say how much I LOVE my sisters? They are unfailingly supportive. I wish Tracy lived closer and Leslie wasn't moving far far away, but they have other adventures ahead. I was less nervous than I thought I'd be. It definitely wasn't perfect but it went well, we sweated a ton, and it was fun. I'll keep at it and get better in time. Kristy should be there to teach with me beginning next week.

- My gallbladder wasn't my gallbladder. Or rather the issue was not my gallbladder. The problem is my stomach producing too much acid and a possible ulcer. So I'm on a month long prescription for Protonix which *should* heal the issue. If not, the doctor will run more tests. I'm noticing more acid reflux. It's not painful, it's just this icky feeling in the back of my throat. I may need to get more Mylanta. I hate the stuff but it was the only thing that worked on my reflux when I was pregnant.

- The scale is not so much my friend lately. I should really just weigh in once or twice a week and go by how much jeans fit, how I feel, and my body fat percentage. I've been doing strength training 2-3 times a week. Last week I did ST twice and abs another day (all paired with a HIIT WO). I feel like I've been neglecting my abs so I think I may focus there a bit more. I'm quite proud of my arms and shoulders though.

- I've been trying other random acts of fitness just to see if I can do them. I can do pull ups (2 if my knuckles face me, 1 with knuckles away), a head stand against a wall, hold the crane for about 10 seconds (a record for me!), almost do the splits, a toe touch, and a pretty dang impressive bridge (up from the floor, I've never been able to bend backwards down into one). I had Ella take a picture of me doing a bridge, curious how far I could arch up. Dad came over and was wincing in pain watching me do it, lol. I love it.

- I have my own fitness website. :) It needs some polishing, but it's paulasfitlife.com. The idea is that to truly be fit, your life needs to be balanced. Happiness requires more than physical fitness. I'm moving in the direction of a more holistic approach and would like to add a life coaching component soon. So much of physical health and fitness is mental. I want to address that as much as the physical exercise. And I will start a fitness revolution! :)

Sunday, May 1, 2011

LIVE Turbo Kick!

I have so much to update. First, I finished out ChaLEAN Extreme. I'm proud of my definition and how strong I've become. I was very frustrated that the scale was up, but I'm pretty sure it was added muscle, which is good but it's still hard to reconcile a higher number on the scale as being something good. I'm working on that. Of course, since CLX ended, the number has gone down. Problem is, I've only worked out a handful of times. My last CLX WO was Friday. Saturday morning a group of us went to Ohio to do Extreme Turbo with the wonderful Angie Green. I took Sunday off and then practiced Round 42 on Monday with Kristy in prep for our first class. Tuesday I woke up feeling hot and my stomach was just disagreeable. While I never threw up, I felt like I might all day. So I took it easy. Wednesday was marginally better but I didn't trust my stomach and I had some congestion then.

Thursday was supposed to be the last Fit Club. Attendance has been steadily declining. Last week there were three of us - me, my sister, and Kristy, soon-to-be co-teacher. We did Cardio Party 2 instead of 1, because it's more fun and I didn't have to worry as much about people not getting it. Then this Thursday, Leslie needed to be home with Paul and Kristy was exhausted. Both texted me to let me know they couldn't make it, which I greatly appreciate. I wasn't feeling well, but figured I could get through one WO okay. Well, no need. Not a single person showed. The pastor didn't even come to let me in. I've been feeling for a while that interest was waning, people were taking for granted that there would always be this free workout on Thursdays, and the whole thing had run its course. I wasn't exactly feeling support from the pastor, who never did get back to me about teaching there - rather, I got the impression he felt inconvenienced by it. Whatever his actual feelings were, it's done now. Which reminds me I still need to call and let him know (that's right, he didn't know Thursday was even supposed to be the final night).

Friday was busy and I had to take Nora to the doctor. And I apparently had a gallbladder attack so I took myself to MedPlus. I'm calling in the morning to schedule an ultrasound on my gallbladder, hopefully for this week. Doctor thinks there may be scar tissue (from what, I have no idea) but whatever caused it, it was freaking painful. I'm a bit afraid to eat, since I'm not sure what will cause pain and what is safe. As such, I haven't had much to eat other than apples, crackers, and bowls of Cheerios since lunch time on Friday. Not good. And the scale is UP. This just goes to show that severely restricting your calories will cause your body to freak out and hold onto any and all calories you do eat (I was still tracking my diet, more to make sure I was eating enough (definitely was not) than anything - Friday I was so painfully bloated, I didn't even hit 1000 calories). So moral of the story - eat enough calories. And pray to God you don't have gallbladder issues, if that is what this is. Although apparently the only "safe" foods are super-healthy, clean foods, so maybe this could be added incentive to stay on track diet-wise, not that my diet was bad to begin with.

Saturday morning I was determined to teach Turbo Kick and make it the best class ever (I did ask the doctor and he said it was safe to work out during a gallbladder attack). Again, no one showed. Maybe I need to advertise more? Post flyers? Personally invite people? I do have a few people who couldn't make it yesterday who plan on coming next week (again, one of them being my wonderfully supportive sister - seriously, best EVER). I have to admit, I was a little relieved yesterday since I was again feeling cruddy and Kristy was super nervous (I was feeling more like "let's do this and get it over with" than freaking out over cuing or forgetting chorey). So we practiced instead. I actually felt better while working out. I have to admit, I want to find out what's going on with my body before I go crazy advertising, just in case I have to cancel (God forbid). Kristy has plans the next two weeks so I'm on my own, no back up if I feel like I'm dying. Fingers crossed I can get my ultrasound tomorrow, k?

So that's what's happening here. Fit Club is done, TK has begun (kind of), the scale keeps changing, CLX is over and I've lost the muscle tone already (seriously, how is it fair that we lose it that fast?), and my body is attacking me. LOL. So hopefully I get this new hiccup figured out and then I rock my new class. Things could be better, but I'm blessed and things could always be much, much worse. Stay active and stay positive!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Do the invisible work

I was reading The Slight Edge this afternoon when I read this: "And here's how real success is built: by the time you get the feedback, the real work's already done. When you get to the point where everyone else can see your results, tell you what good choices you've made, notice your good fortune, slap you on the back and tell you how lucky you are, the critical Slight Edge choices you made are ancient history. And chances are, at the time you actually made those choices, nobody noticed but you."

YES! I've lamented this exact thing to Steve. While working at losing weight, making good food choices, drinking gallons of water, working out consistently and pushing hard, no one cared or noticed (well, Steve did but he lives with me). I'd post on FB that I was on day 48 of TurboFire or I was sore or whatever. Very few people commented or liked it. Fast forward to the end, when I had completed 20 weeks of TF and I posted my results. I posted before and after pictures, my weight, and the number of inches lost. I got tons of feedback then. Everyone wanted to know what I had been doing. I think people hoped it was this easy thing I did, some pill I took, some gadget I used 5 minutes a day, some quick, easy fix. Nope. No one wants to hear that it took hard work, it took will power, it took months to see real results. Everyone wants the quick fix NOW.

So there you have it. How did I lose weight? Consistently making small, good choices. Taking steps everyday toward my goal. Setting small goals along the way to my big goal. That's it. If you want success, make choices consistent with your goal. It's simple and hard all at the same time. A short cut or quick fix won't do it. A short-term "diet" won't work. It's a lifestyle change if you want to keep the body changes. So do the work no one notices if you want success. Because trust me, people will see the success.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Overachieving and perfectionism

I'm at my goal weight and maintaining pretty easily. I'm still working out regularly (5 days a week). I'm counting calories but allowing a few more indulgences. I'm trying to figure out how many calories I should be eating now. The last thing I want to do is screw up my metabolism by eating too little and slowing it so I have to eat too little. Most of the calculators tell me I should be eating somewhere between 2000 and 2400 calories to maintain at my activity level. One even said 2700. I'm eating more in the 1400-1800 range. I started doing more ChaLEAN Extreme so I know I can eat more without gaining weight and I'm gaining definition again. I shifted my workout schedule to just CLX and Turbo Kick for cardio. I need lots of practice to be ready to teach.

So what's the problem? It's been a huge adjustment seeing the scale stay the same or bounce around a bit, even if it is in the range I'm aiming for (140 to 147, in case you're curious). And I had a bit less strength training for a while too, which coupled with the scale not going down made me feel like I was getting soft and losing definition. To put it bluntly, I started feeling fat. Yup. I'm in the normal BMI range. My body fat percentage is below 20% and in the same range as some Olympic athletes (and I'm not talking sumo wrestlers). I'm in good cardiovascular shape. My current jean size is firmly in the single digits and the smallest it's been in years. I'm not fat. But I FEEL fat. My brain likes to play tricks on me. The person I see in the mirror is not the person other people see. It's not good. And I'm a perfectionistic overachiever. I want progress, despite the fact that this is a good size, weight, body fat percentage for me. My perfectionism and overachieving self is what has pushed me to lose weight, get fit, get my TK cert, finish my masters, etc. It's both good and bad. Right now I'm having a hard time with the bad side of it. I'm trying to shift my focus and I have away from the scale. But wanting my body fat to drop lower? Probably not a good idea. I'm afraid I'm venturing into dangerous waters. Will I ever think I'm thin enough, fit enough, just enough? So how do you break the overachieving perfectionist habit? Sometimes I just wish I could see the me that Steve sees. Or the me that my girls see. I really can be my own worst enemy.

Have you been here? How did you deal with it?

Thursday, March 24, 2011

The Turbo Kick Training!

I did it. I faced down my fears, drove to Ohio, rocked it, and now I'm waiting for my certificate of completion. I did it!

I barely slept the night before. My brain wouldn't stop running. I got up early, got ready, and left the house shortly after 7am. I hit Tim Horton's for coffee and breakfast and went on my way. It was about an hour and a half drive. I got there right on time and found the right room. There were 54 of us, which I guess is huge. It started with some info, then we worked on correct form and technique. Then veteran TK instructors came in and we learned Round 42. The energy in the room was awesome. And Liza Jane (friend of Jenelle Summers) high-fived me! I'm a dork, but that was so cool.

After that we broke for lunch. I changed (I was so sweaty!) and got Subway. Then we went over more info for the written test. Then we reviewed sections of the round and taught them to the rest of the group. Then we did the different kicks and punches (the practical exam) and then the written test. The end. The testing was easier than I expected and I'm confident I did well. And we weren't tested on teaching or cuing at all. Then I changed, bought food and coffee, and drove back home. It was a long day but I'm so glad I did it. Oh, and I burned 2368 calories. And my HRM blinked out for a bit too, so it missed part of the workout (drenched in sweat I think).

I can't start teaching until my certificate of completion comes in 4-6 weeks, but I need to learn the steps and cuing anyhow. I have 11 rounds, but I'll just work on Round 42 for now. ;) It feels hard right now but I think there's just a steep learning curve starting out with anything. I'll get it and it will be great. I'm trying to get my other ducks in a row too (a place to teach, insurance, info on other certifications, etc.). In some ways it feels like Sunday must have been the easy part. So wish me luck! I still have a lot of work ahead of me!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Nerves

It feels like things are gaining speed. Fit Club was smaller this week, me and four other people, but that's okay. I think numbers will wax and wane depending on people's schedules. One person was traveling for work, another needed that night at home, one had tutoring, two had a meeting, another needed to stay with the kids because her husband had a meeting, and a few had plans because it was St. Patrick's Day. I figure there will be a few regulars and others who come when they can. People seem to enjoy it and I know it's helping them physically, so I'm doing good. :) I took a vote and we're sticking with Cardio Party 1 next week. The steps can be a little tricky when you're new to Turbo Jam so staying with the same routine for a few weeks will help the group with mastery. The more they get it, the more energy they put in, the more calories they burn, the better their form gets, the more fun it is, the more confident they get. So we'll stick with CP1.

My Turbo Kick training is TOMORROW. I'm nervous and excited and so very much on edge. I'm doing laundry, I have my directions ready to go, I have a packing list, I know what I'm doing for breakfast, etc etc. I can DO this. And I will be great. All week when I've been nervous, I've told myself I am a rockstar. It's helping. :) And because my natural bent is to over-prepare when I'm nervous, I started packing Tuesday and a packing list on Thursday. My directions have been printed out for over a week and I made sure I have good copies of the maps earlier this week.

I think I'll continue doing Fit Club for a few weeks before switching over to teaching Turbo Kick. I need to find a location to teach (the church is a possibility and the pastor is looking into it for me) and work out those logistics, get insurance, and practice the round. I may do a practice class with a few select people to get my sea legs. I'm networking with a few local instructors for tips and possible teaching locations. I'm really doing this. I have pictured myself teaching a class in the past, but it was more the way that I pictured myself giving a concert (I can't sing or play an instrument) or acting in a movie (other than a few church things and class projects, I've never acted). This is happening. I'm doing this. I'm facing down my fears with the belief that I will be better, stronger, more confident, and living my dreams on the other side. So yes, I am nervous, but I believe I can do this. I AM doing this. :) Wish me luck!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Fit Club!

I need to update! I'm finally better. I still have some drainage and a slight cough, but am much-improved from my last update. I've been successfully maintaining, through a wedding and weekend away, dinners out, being sick. I'm doing this. Rock on. :)
We've had Fit Club twice. The first night we had 12 people. It went well and people were definitely interested in coming back. The second night we had 9 people and 5 were new. I think we'll end up with a few regulars and then some people who come when it fits their schedule, which is awesome in my opinion. I'm pleased with the turn out. One person even ordered Turbo Jam from me so she could do it more than once a week. Yay!
The Turbo Kick training is next Sunday - only 8 days away! I'm both excited and nervous. I believe I can do it, but the actual doing it scares me a little. I'm still trying to figure out where I'll teach I'm certified. It sounds like I may actually be able to teach at the church. I need to talk to the pastors about it to be sure. I just have a few concerns about that. Most gyms would have a sound system in place, with a mic to use. They would also have a mirror at the front of the room. Starting out, most instructors face the front of the room and have the class follow their movements from behind them. More advanced instructors are able to cue but do the reverse, mirroring the class. I'm not sure about doing that yet. So a mirror would be incredibly useful, because I could still see the class. Which brings me to the next issue: my volume. I'm not a loud person. Facing away from the class would exacerbate that issue. But a mic would easily solve it. The church doesn't have a mirror or sound system in the basement. I'm checking out locations in the area. One location is in Spring Arbor, which would be a bit of a drive, and I'm not sure she would be willing to rent out the space or if I could afford it if she does. She teaches Jazzercise so I went this morning, figuring she'd probably be more willing to consider renting to me if I support her class. It was a better workout than I thought it would be. But there were jazz hands! As it turns out, my parents may know her husband and she knows both my husband and my in-laws. We're now FB friends and she's willing to answer some questions I have (regarding insurance and certifications). I'll work up to asking about renting. Depending on how things turn out, maybe I'll do one night a week there and one night a week at the church. We'll see.
As mentioned, I also need to figure out insurance, liability waivers, and other certifications. I'm chipping away at those things. Baby steps, but it's progress. Moving forward, baby! Wish me luck!